Then, everyone left at 6pm and I came directly home after buying some groceries. What do you know? Hot pot for dinner! So after I crammed my homework, I went to sleep, only to be woken up by my grandpa that my great grandmother passed away because her two cysts/tumor erupted at around 4 am last night. I wanted to cry, but I can't. I was going to visit her tomorrow due to president's day, but the chance is now gone. The doctors lied! They said she had 1 month left, not 6 days from that damned cancer. It's too early for me to accept it. For someone who recently just gave me lunar new years money in a red envelope, I just won't accept things happening so rapidly! She was someone who I was pretty close to yet not very close - but she was still cheerful and lonely, a person I admired. Tears are rolling down my cheeks now, but still, I refuse to aknowlege another void in my life. I'm scared of voids. Life really is a two sided coin. It makes you happy then strike you back when you're most vulnerable.
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Hey Ron! I found out I can actually leave you comments. :) First off, I want to deeply apologize for your sudden lost. Secondly, I want to give you kudos for overcoming another barrier in your life with the right way of thinking. Although these past few days, or perhaps months, have been a struggle, instead of dwelling on the past, you have learned to appreciate it for what it is and for allowing you to be the person you've become. Looking back, you should see that you've grown not only stronger, but also more independent, and open-minded. As the saying goes, "What doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger." :) Ron, you would make your great grandma truly proud of you. I can assure you that she has found someplace better than here at this moment, as you're reading this. May God always be with her. <3 I wish you only the best in life! Good luck with the remaining of this semester, and don't let anything stop you from becoming that "shining star!" :)
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