Special day~?

So today is a special day to me. Her birthday is today, October 22nd. She's finally 18! I'm proud of her. To give a short introduction about her, she's from china and came over to the US at the age of 11. It's quite an amazing feat how well she adapted within society in just seven years. I really admire her for that. So, getting back on track, today was her birthday. I feel glad for her because, well, you know, Friday is the day to look for when you're a student. It's the day when the work is finally over and when you breathe a huge sigh of relief. 

Unfortunately, I can't say i'm 100% happy either. Despite her birthday being on a Friday, she still seemed stressed - she still has work at the Brooklyn Public Library. She asked whether or not she should take a day off. My obvious answer would have been a yes, but that seemed rather selfish. Why? Because I could tell that she had a goal in life: to have a place in society. Despite being an ABC, I was once bullied around in Dyker and wished i held a place in society. I can definitely relate my pain and feelings for her right now. Obviously, I didn't say no, but the she were to work, it would only ruin her special, precious day. She is 18. It is a special year where many responsibilities come to play and definitely cannot be wasted because of one mean boss. Unfortunately i don't know whether or not she had gone to work or not, but I shall abide by her decisions.


Now, i didn't ask her out yet. I really do like her, but we barely just met. Giving her a gift too expensive might scare her while giving a gift too light would be punishing to myself. Someone as beautiful, as remarkable, and as admirable as her definitely deserves a great gift, right? So, at the moment, i'm just hoping for closer friendship before i plan make my move. Honestly, we're just a bit better than acquaintances, but progress is being made. ^^


Although i still wonder. Should I ask her out to begin with? Romance and love does indeed have its good sides: it sparks innovation, creativity, support, and of course, love. However, at the same time, it only drags us behind our goals. She wants to improve life in America while I want to similarly be successful. If I do become in a relationship with her, I'm pretty sure we'll both be in pain to a certain degree, worrying and caring about each other. Currently, whenever she feels sad or depressed, I feel the same. Every time she smiles, my heart brightens one-hundred fold. My emotions are INTERTWINED with hers. I guess you can say it's cute, but i'm still curious. What does the future hold for us if we're together? I guess time will tell.


Speaking of which, she recently posted that she had a birthday party! At least that sounds happy! (^.^)v