Precious times with old friends

Just two days ago was black friday, my first time going with my friends on this day to shopping. It was my first with Helen and my second with Henry. Things were pretty fun in that we each got MOST of what we wanted. Then we went toManhattan to buy a new tennis racket. Surprisingly, Henry bought one too! It was an awesome day. It was then when i saw Henry and Helen sleep-nap. Indeed, people do look cuter when sleeping, haha. Afterwards, i wasted the rest of my black friday at the EG model shop to attempt to finish my robot.


Yesterday was the official pot luck dinner between me and my friends. Nadeem, Pat, Yu, Rayes. Anna, Anthony, Elizabeth and several other people were there. It was the first tech reunion ever since college started and things were FUN! Pat showed me the Sony Nex 5 camera and I wanted one so badly! I might just save up to buy one in the future. We then created the human table, played the Wii, played an incomplete monopoly and cracked a lot of inappropriate jokes while playing the game, CONTACT. I also met Eva's sister because the dinner was hosted at her house. She was cute - up until eva told us she was 14, so i was shocked. I was completely shocked not at the fact that she was 14, but by the fact that she looked OLDER than eva in the first place when you compare the two. Still, as a 14 year old, she was a bit too quiet. So, back to the point: the food was DELICIOUS and tasted at LEAST 4 or 5 stars for everything. Unfortunately, nearly half of every dish was left over b/c we all brought in too much. At least I'm glad I was in charge of the apple cider; it was the only drink there.


So today, i played tennis for the second day with my new racket i bought. It runs very smooth except for the fact that I can barely control it because it is TOO light. Not that i can't control at all, but it'll require time to get used to it. Also, Yu played tennis with us today before heading back to Stony. And when we were almost done with tennis, i met one other close friend of mine that day: Lawrence. This thanksgiving weekend definitely deserved a TON of thanks,


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Who do I Really Like?

Recently, I have fallen into minor emotional breakdowns. Nothing major, but just depression and loneliness. I guess that's why so many people date in college, right? I recently feel more attracted towards some other people; people other than the one i liked during Halloween. Sure, i still like her to some degree, but it feels like my impression of her is somehow lost. I honestly don't know why. My love life is in a turmoil and I recently dropped my CS class due to stress. Ah, how wonderful it is to not have CS and EG classes together. It makes life so much more easier. Nevertheless, should i still ask her out (the one i liked during thanksgiving)? I put it as a goal to myself to confess to her in early December, before Christmas. But now..i feel as if much was lost. Her social niche is incompatible with mine and her attitude has changed as of recently. I feel as i am a complete stranger to her still (even though we've been through enough classes to call each other as acquaintances).


On the other hand, there is this other girl i still have feel for - someone I've known since my HS years who was with me in the same major. I wanted to ask her out before in the past, but she was often with another person whom i fairly knew. I knew they were just really close friends but I didn't have the guts to tell her my feelings before. Furthermore, I wasn't sure if I REALLY liked her back in those days. What do I mean? Well, lets just say that after 1 year of an all boys catholic school during my freshman year, I thought the female teachers there were "hot" - and I'm rather serious!!! My Aerospace major in BTHS was similar in that it was mostly boys, but i wasn't sure if it was my true feelings or just testosterone. Now, she's in upstate. Distant relationships are not too fun, because i know that for myself. When I am in coupled with someone and am not able to see them much in real life, things get scary. I tend to over-think things and get paranoid, creating much unnecessary stress. In fact, i recently read her blog too. She asked the same question as i did: is having a boyfriend/girlfriend really worth it? Positives include romance and sociability. Negatives include extra stress and the pain that comes from the suffering. Personally, if her blogs are true, I think we're both quite compatible - but the distance part of things make it troublesome. She's in upstate NY while I'm in NYC. Are we supposed to webcam for the rest of the years? I'm sure she'll come back since her hometown and family is still in NYC, but that's only during the seasonal breaks.


I guess I'll reconsile with myself with this matter and let time tell. Atm, it's time to head back to focusing on my schoolwork.


I can't wait until Christmas approaches!!

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Remembering Promises

Recently, I've slacked off and felt really stressed/depressed in college. College work was tough and I am vastly lacking the friendship and the connections I once had in my high school life. Polytech life is very unique and adaptive but i feel as if a chunk of me is still missing. As of lately, this has caused my grades and my overall mood to drop. I was feeling down with every passing day until today. I remembered my promises.


In the summer, I promised myself to help other Asians to alleviate the pain and misery of the poorer class. I promised myself that I would become rich one day and help everyone around me. But doesn't being rich and giving it away sound ironic? Well, no. I want to be rich in the view of others. I want the joy of my wealth to spread to those around me, whether its intellectual wealth or financial wealth. I NEED to do for those around me, and perhaps i may one day find someone I love by doing so.


Recently, I've created New Generation, New York. It is a student created non-for-profit organization for other students. Although it is not a full-pledged non-for-profit yet (because it is not yet registered), it exists as a group on facebook and is collecting more and more supporters. Run by me, Ruixin, and Henry, it seems and feels like a promising group. I may have to add more administrators later on. I've also remembered promising myself to raise enough money to start a quickly's store near Brooklyn Technical HS to generate profit. However, this all starts with education. With good grades, most of this can be more easily achieved, so I must continue, no matter how stressed or down i feel!


Wish me luck!




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